For the first time in a while, I tried using color on the computer like paint and got so keyboard-crushingly-sweep-everything-off-the-table frustrated I wanted to give up. It almost seemed hopeless to me to even think of improving my color sense...

And then I realized I also haven't been exercising my creativity--designing characters, worlds, writing stories, drawing whats on my mind, or even fanart...

The point of this post is as a reminder:
1. Besides diligently practicing technique (which right now for me is just speed figure drawing sessions everyday)
2. don't feel discouraged to draw whatever the fuck you feel like in whatever amateur use of color, line, shading, blah blah blah you want!

Every blah drawing is a step closer to awesomeness.

(Next step is to apply this positive thinking to my anxiety concerning school... I am seriously freaked out man.)

My siblings and I went to Disneyland for a Saturday last weekend. I really enjoyed the little how to draw so-and-so class, it was so cute and I loveedd the set... look at that thing! I seriously felt 10 years old again... lol. I also bought "The Alchemy of Animation" by Don Hahn--the book gives a basic review of the process and the players in creating an animated film, he provided just enough detail and personal experience flair to reignite my hope and motivation to draw draw draw.

So on a similar note, fueled with a sense of urgency and idealism once again (yay true final summer) I started a new sketchbook based on a quote I half-remember from a Chuck Jones biography about how it takes 1000 bad drawings to get a good one... but since I wanted an accurate quote I scoured the internet, failed, and settled for

“…it was no discouraging surprise to me that my first instructor at Chouinard Art Institute… greeted his beginning classes with the following grim edict: ‘All of you here have one hundred thousand bad drawings in you. The sooner you get rid of them, the better it will be for everyone.’

This was not a discouraging statement to me, because I was already well into my third hundred thousand.”

So wish me luck and perseverance! Since pursuing art isn't my career priority (although it is a life, self-fulfillment, priority) I feel guilty for spending too much time on one drawing or illust. unless I have some serious emotional investment in it. This means most of my skill is going into basic pencil drawings and I'll have a weakened sense of color and lights and darks.... oh but GODDEERNIT you will see progress in my ability to infuse marks on paper with life. Aww yea.

made a gif with cs2 photoshop on dads comp. (click the bear above hehe) froostrated with it so on a search for free solution buhuhu...
(this is a naked Vanilla the teddy bear, who is actually my hubby's old bear hehe, shhh)

free programs i'm considering, look forward to experiments...

2d
http://www.plasticanimationpaper.dk/
http://synfig.org/cms/
http://www.creatoon.com/
http://www.giantscreamingrobotmonkeys.com/monkeyjam/

flash
http://vectorian.com/giotto/

source: http://www.calicomonkey.com/blog/free-cartoon-animation-software.php

http://wtfpod.libsyn.com/webpage/episode-121-ken-jeong/

Really diggin his anecdotes about his experience with his parents, family, practicing medicine, leaving medicine, and acting and doing comedy. To the bottom of my heart, I really appreciate hearing his story! What his proctor told him during his internal medicine internship--that he could be a great doctor with a comedic background or a great comedian with a background in medicine... totally in tune with my thought process at the moment. Hehe... now enough with this, lets get to work!!! :)